One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 139. It always reminds me just how intimately God knows me, and that there’s nothing I could ever do that would keep me from His presence. He knows me better than I could ever know myself.
Verses 1 – 4 powerfully illustrate the reassuring fact that God knows everything about us. He knows when we lie down and when we rise up. He understands our thoughts afar off and is acquainted with all of ways. There isn’t a word that we can utter that the Lord doesn’t already know. Realizing these truths has helped me draw closer to God. It’s deepened my relationship with Him, because He lets me know that I can trust Him with everything knowing that He won’t betray me. He’s the best friend I could ever have. He’s my true confidante.
Over the years I’ve had relationships with people that I thought I could trust enough to be vulnerable with. I’ve shared some very personal details about my life that I would only tell someone that I trusted implicitly. I don’t open myself up very easily, so it was only when they showed themselves through time to be trustworthy and caring that I slowly let them get closer and shared my heart. Unfortunately, they proved to be someone I really couldn’t trust, and I ended up feeling betrayed and heartbroken.
What I love about God is, He doesn’t treat you like people treat you. God is love, and He only knows how to love us in its most purest form. That’s why Psalm 139 blesses me so much. It lets me know I can be completely vulnerable and transparent with Him, and He won’t go around telling other folks my business. I can talk to Him at any moment and can tell Him anything – no matter how petty, irrational, off-track, lonely, afraid, frustrated, or upset I am. I don’t have to preface my thoughts so He can get the full gist of what I’m saying. Verse 2 says He understands my thought afar off, so I already know God gets me.
That revelation is so freeing for me! Because I know I can trust God with every part of me, I’m not afraid to open myself up to Him. I’m experiencing a deeper level of trust and intimacy that I have never have before. And I know there’s no place I can go from His presence (verses 7-10). God’s love is always there, and His Holy Spirit dwells within me. I can be in constant communion and communication with Him. I don’t need to schedule an appointment to talk to Him. All I need to do is pray.
Heavenly Father, I thank You that You know me so well. You said before You formed me in my mother’ womb You knew me, so there is nothing that I can do that will surprise You. Thank You for showing me I can trust You with all that I am. I give You my whole heart and soul. Search me Lord, and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Lead me by Your Holy Spirit so that Your destiny for my life is fulfilled, in Jesus’ name. Amen.
